Run It Straight

Driving past the baseball field
Fence still leaning sideways
Thought about my grandfather again
Happens more these days
Dad didn't say much about him
Just enough to know he drank
And if I'm anything like him
I think I finally understand

Some things don't disappear
They just get quieter

Run it straight
Don't look back
Don't spend your whole life
Reading into cracks
Spent years trying to outrun
Something in my blood
Now I'm just trying
To stay when things get hard

Sorry I couldn't help you
Sorry I never knew your voice
Sorry nobody saw the difference
Between struggling and choice
Sometimes I catch myself
Getting quiet for no reason
Whole room full of people
And I still disappear a little

Guess some things get handed down
Without anybody meaning to

Run it straight
Don't look back
Don't get buried
Inside your own head
Spent years trying to outrun
Something with my same last name
Now I'm just trying
Not to hand it down again

My little boy was laughing
From the backseat tonight
And for a second
Everything got real still
Like life was giving me
Another shot at it

Run it straight
Let it hurt
Let the past be
What it was
I don't need to understand
Every broken thing anymore
Just need my boys
To know I stayed

Maybe that's enough